she asks me how i feel about turning 40. immediately there are tears in my eyes and the tightness at the back of my throat. i look down into my burger at the gym. what are the sentences i can formulate around that? – my life is half over and i’ve done fuck-all – my … [Read more…]
walking among the tall snow covered trees – 100 ft tall cedar and doug fir (mouse tail pine cones), western hemlock, moss-covered, snow covered rain forest, roaring river, dogs here and there obeying commands (heel and stay, wait), footprints on the trail, stepping rock to rock to log to rock through the river, getting kala … [Read more…]
Chorus (melody 1): I couldn’t stop even though I’d hit the ground Can’t stop I’m diggin’ my way deeper down I don’t want anyone to see me now Verse (melody 2): Candy melts so slowly in my mouth Still I wanted to hold on a little longer Memories fade, feelings stay sharp Branded on my … [Read more…]
How do you take it lightlywhen i’ve come to you before
please just get me somewhere and land me safei’ve got so very much in here that’s got to come outit’s not about another man a new job a new beginningit’s in here – it’s in me. it’s up to me – no one else can get it for me… this heart is too big – … [Read more…]
Fiction for me, is my truth. Though one person’s truth is another’s… well, you’ll see. The names and events and places in this book, though they are true to me, exist to no one else. You may recognize yourself, but then again, isn’t that the point?For Daddy. Sit down, sit deeply into me and wait … [Read more…]
Where am I? Oh yea. Movie theatre. Whose hand is on my leg, ever so subtly working his way up my thigh? Oh, yeah. Taylor. Alright. Everything is o.k. I would have been fine if I hadn’t gotten quite so stoned, but on the other hand, I might not have been able to handle this … [Read more…]
max-“we all have them I guess,” she takes a long drag of her cigarette. The smoke masks her sigh. “They’re those high maintenance friends.” cat- “what do you mean when you say high maintenance?” max- “well… let’s see. I look forward to her visits. I always have a lot of fun when she’s in town, … [Read more…]
“The little man who wasn’t there was standing on the stairs. He wasn’t there again today. Gee I wish he’d go away.” (Author unknown.) It wasn’t the time of year in which people generally go insane. It wasn’t the oppressive heat of New England August, nor was it the loneliness of February. It was May. … [Read more…]
I had no idea what to do next. My mother was not in her room the first time I called. I called back to the nurse’s station through the hospital switchboard again, back to the cancer ward. Hearing it a second time somehow confirmed it in my brain. I explained who I was and asked … [Read more…]