It comes when I’m a little overtired. Just past the point when I’ve given in to the wear. I look for a good story, a tale, to spin me into my dream world. My alter reality, one of many different realities I am and could be living right now[CG1] . Sometimes, it’s the life in which … [Read more…]
I had no idea what to do next. My mother was not in her room the first time I called. I called back to the nurse’s station through the hospital switchboard again, back to the cancer ward. Hearing it a second time somehow confirmed it in my brain. I explained who I was and asked … [Read more…]
the evening is winding down, desert already finished (ice cream, chocolate sauce). the dogs established their order and played themselves out some time ago. now they are asleep. kala, of course, snoring in a chair in the corner. a row of people on the floor, feet sticking out, a row of people on the couch … [Read more…]
it dawns on me that i haven’t done enough hiking in winter. surrounded by 100 ft tall cedar and listening to the wind in needles, clumps of snow falling to the ground, every once in awhile a branch cracks under the weight and i can imagine an avalanche nearby. kala is ahead w/ rudy, running … [Read more…]
I know that I’m irritable and angry, in part, because we’ve officially headed into the holidays. We hit Thanksgiving. I can feel it coming on like a bad cold: the tickle in the back of my throat the 2nd week of November, convincing myself I’m totally healthy I dive in wanting to bake for the … [Read more…]
I don’t remember a time I was ever this angry. I’m stomping, defiant, to work in the mornings. Vigilant at the dog park w/ Bean, waiting for any infraction, any sign of negligence, any excuse to start a war of words with another dog owner. I hear the neighbors in the garage by the washing … [Read more…]
all of us did manage to fit around that table, farmhouse lamp like a hurricane lamp hanging over the table, knees knocking underneath. i brought homemade cloth napkins, the ones from our wedding, w/ little fabric tags pinned on. folks used permanent markers to decorate their tag and keep the napkin for the weekend. someone … [Read more…]
big chill style reunion, lots of folks old and new – sharing houses and meals, homemade napkins, homemade bread w/ bicycles etched into the dough before baking – giant plate of all the leftovers in the fridge thrown together – hugs at the door and five dogs colliding and strangers looking on at the old … [Read more…]
and that’s a horrible thing to say. how can i say that about my own mother? what am i thinking?
Grams & Ed, A big hello with lots of love to both of you. I hope all is well in Vermont. I have been battling homesickness, summer is the hardest season. We don’t really have a summer here, it pretty much stays sunny and spring or foggy and spring throughout the year. I have a … [Read more…]