supposedly love and care and kindness washed over with a stream of direction protection and guilt. always do the right thing with Mother over your shoulder, makes you wonder that we even have children at all everyone thinks of this glorious time of new little smiles and loves first giggles and stomach tickles when it’s … [Read more…]
I miss the man in my bed. That random man that I didn’t pick up last night at U—‘s party. We’d met at several of U—‘s parties over the last few years. He’s a friend of an old coworker of mine. Surfer guy. Incredibly good looking, and broad chested, and smooth headed, and GOD he’s hot. He … [Read more…]
I’d been waking in the grey of dawn again. The magic hour when anything is possible and you could still be there beside me. I savored it, until it went sour. Your warmth, your mouth, your breath, the silhouette of your head above me. I touched a face no longer there, it hadn’t been for … [Read more…]
I can picture myself, telling him(a) the truth. How I feel, how I long for him. How everything has turned off for me, I am losing the feeling of purpose in my life. I can do work to make the lives of other’s better. I can send girls to school in Nepal and raise money … [Read more…]
lotbg:today is going to kill me. i will need a big drink when this one is done. caitygrrl:are you alive ? caitygrrl:avalanched? lotbg: yup. just nutty. a billion little things to do and i have no memory left. pot and palm pilots have taken everything i have. caitygrrl:postits baby postits caitygrrl:looks suspiciously like one of … [Read more…]
someone please tell me that everthing will be ok. i want to be a star. i live for those moments in my room where i can breathe before an audience of millions. and i tell you, i will never forget those who brought me there. becky garrison, i learned to perform on a stage with … [Read more…]
new. as evrything has been over this past year. everythibng seems new. damn. i can’t type stoneed. i can sit in the window and perch on the ledge and e a bird if i want to. i can look down at the cement below my window, at the the blades of grass slipping up through … [Read more…]
of those who know me well, i wonder what they see of me. the way i look at rebecca, and see through all the facets of her showing through what are, at the moment, lousy decisions. but the only decisions she could make right now. for her. i see her character showing and the changes … [Read more…]
The long awaited complete guide to a long, contented life with your K—. Please Allow Me to Introduce Myself. Introduction If you are one who is so blessed as to have a K— with whom to traipse through life, you are already aware of the importance of this guide. A K— is unique in many aspects. Her … [Read more…]
1/16/99 had to arrange the formulation of a plan. we must be together for new years. to realize in one moment with rebecca sitting across from me that we’d never been in the same room together. to realize that in the book i’m working on, neither had our characters. rebecca, me, shalini and kyra. i … [Read more…]