friends

of those who know me well, i wonder what they see
of me.

the way i look at rebecca, and see through all the facets
of her showing through what are, at the moment, lousy decisions. but the only decisions she could make right now. for her. i see her character showing and the changes she is trying to make in herself, and forgive all her selfishness. knowing it is what i must have acted like during that time as well.

but i wonder, now, what do my friends see in me? how do they understand what i’m going through now? how do i look to them? am i as obvious as rebecca? am i as easy to read? no one, of course, will come out and say anything. when your friends are going through their phases, you never stop to tell them much. you let them go through what they need to go through to get wherever it is they’re going. still i wonder what they’d say to each other? what do kyra and shal and rebecca say when they speak of me?