Health (Shit)

Yeah. Health my ass. My body has betrayed me. My family has no history. No medical problems. And here I am taking no less than 5 supplements and 2 medications per day. My hormones have betrayed me. I can’t have children, and yet I have to regulate my pituitary hormones for the rest of my … [Read more…]

Happiness

I expected to get gossipy, I expected to have a bit of a session, but really a session that was gossipy about someone else. Instead my friend turns to me and says “I’m really concerned about you. That place in my heart, that I see when I think of Caitlin, that place has “Concern” written … [Read more…]

Anasuya – 19-8-2015

Suya ~ Thank you for writing! On receiving this I was immediately reminded of our exchange of letters years ago. As I was purging before the move I found a stack of correspondence from you, which I’ve kept and stashed away after reminiscing a bit. I’ll cross my fingers on the Clomid for you! There’s … [Read more…]

back at work

After mutual vacations. He is still next to me. Standing right there. Responding when I turn toward him in the slightest. Turning toward me. He left me a duck made of Lego’s. He left me, specifically, a duck I had made of legos. At our mozilla all hands in Whistler. He’d gone and found it … [Read more…]

they make up this fabric

  I don’t know how to make you see yourself through my eyes.How do I let you know I recognize your flaws? We’ve all got those parts – those places that we’re ashamed of. Those moments we’d rather had never happened. They make up this fabric

Inertia

I’m never going to feel again. I’m never going to be so addicted to something that I have to do it over and over, compulsively. I can honestly say that the only thing I’ve ever done compulsively is sing alone in my room. Pretend there’s an audience and dream big… see myself on stage. The … [Read more…]

Why Am I So Hard On The People I Love?

I’m not sure. But I know that I am. My first reaction is critical. It’s like a reflex. It’s so automatic there’s no time to look for a trigger or think about what causes it. It’s taken over my words and my actions before I know that it is present. At work I look for … [Read more…]