Where am I? Oh yea. Movie theatre. Whose hand is on my leg, ever so subtly working his way up my thigh? Oh, yeah. Taylor. Alright. Everything is o.k. I would have been fine if I hadn’t gotten quite so stoned, but on the other hand, I might not have been able to handle this … [Read more…]
max-“we all have them I guess,” she takes a long drag of her cigarette. The smoke masks her sigh. “They’re those high maintenance friends.” cat- “what do you mean when you say high maintenance?” max- “well… let’s see. I look forward to her visits. I always have a lot of fun when she’s in town, … [Read more…]
“The little man who wasn’t there was standing on the stairs. He wasn’t there again today. Gee I wish he’d go away.” (Author unknown.) It wasn’t the time of year in which people generally go insane. It wasn’t the oppressive heat of New England August, nor was it the loneliness of February. It was May. … [Read more…]
I had no idea what to do next. My mother was not in her room the first time I called. I called back to the nurse’s station through the hospital switchboard again, back to the cancer ward. Hearing it a second time somehow confirmed it in my brain. I explained who I was and asked … [Read more…]
the evening is winding down, desert already finished (ice cream, chocolate sauce). the dogs established their order and played themselves out some time ago. now they are asleep. kala, of course, snoring in a chair in the corner. a row of people on the floor, feet sticking out, a row of people on the couch … [Read more…]
it dawns on me that i haven’t done enough hiking in winter. surrounded by 100 ft tall cedar and listening to the wind in needles, clumps of snow falling to the ground, every once in awhile a branch cracks under the weight and i can imagine an avalanche nearby. kala is ahead w/ rudy, running … [Read more…]
I know that I’m irritable and angry, in part, because we’ve officially headed into the holidays. We hit Thanksgiving. I can feel it coming on like a bad cold: the tickle in the back of my throat the 2nd week of November, convincing myself I’m totally healthy I dive in wanting to bake for the … [Read more…]
I don’t remember a time I was ever this angry. I’m stomping, defiant, to work in the mornings. Vigilant at the dog park w/ Bean, waiting for any infraction, any sign of negligence, any excuse to start a war of words with another dog owner. I hear the neighbors in the garage by the washing … [Read more…]
I’m sorry I hung up on you Robin, I wanted to call back because I hate going to bed angry and upset, but it wasn’t going to do any good. I lost my cat this week, I’m exhausted from 2012 planning at work and emotionally drained. I put out an initial thought on how to … [Read more…]
i’m not over it yet – all those people that come and go. they take part, they love you, they share moments of my life and then they are gone along w/ the dorms, the cabins, the lakes, the flights, the classes… those people those places those faces they are gone. they inhabit my dreams … [Read more…]