now that i know i imagined you
it doesn’t make it hurt any less
realizing these feelings
were projections of me onto you
doesn’t make me love you less
i don’t feel different in knowing
i just feel different without you
why this need?
passion, fire
obsession, addiction
loss, abandonment
anger
to what am i addicted?
was it a test?
were all these interactions tests you gave me?
homework to study and see if you could tolerate me in your life?
and as i slowly failed (did i slowly fail or did i fail suddenly?)