breakup

fire filling
burning holding rage in my stomach already full
of bile of the stench of wanting to destroy exploding
longing
to throw away the past
out the window into the streets
hope that glimmered
evilly trying to blind myself with splendor
idealistic bullshit maintaining beauty
where there is not beauty to be found.
lashing with my mind
uncontrollable, wanting to really show you
unable to really wound
restrained by my own fucking
sense of dignity
flowing away in the gutters melting on the sidewalk in the sun.
collapsed now I am out of breath
and it all goes on without me
once again.
you where there is no me